ugh. . .i'm so weak

it's midnight. . .

i should be sleeping.

instead i'm resisting the urge to call a certain someone.

him mum called me earlier. . .she misses me. wants me to have lunch.

ugh. i miss that boy. but i have a sneaking suspicion that he misses me too. . .

i can only believe that because HE called me Sunday . . . just to talk.

he seems sad. I HATE IT. all i can do is give him his space and time. . . and pray pray pray for him.

school work is so hard for me to sit down and do. . . i have a HUGE photo project that I haven't even started

UGH.

pray for me.

maybe i was wrong

almost a month later. . .

all of that is true in my heart. . .but things happen.

if you don't know, first of all i'm suprised i've told many and it also seems to have spread like wildfire, philip and i broke up. we're "taking a break" as of last week. pray for me it took philip breaking up with me to realize how incredibly dependent i am on people.  . .but more importantly pray for him.

the whole reason he asked for time was to rearrange some things in his life. . .deal with, or face some unresolved issues in his personal life. . .more than i want him back in my life. . .i want him to do what God wants him to do. pray that he can have the strength to do God's will. . .even if it does not involve me

love,

susie.

its only the beginning

its march the first. . .

you know even after a year and a month plus.. .

i am so in love.

if i haven't found the love of my life. . .

i sure have discovered the best friend that i have needed and yearned for all of my life.

sometimes he ticks me off and breaks my heart like no one else ever could but even then i love him. I would rather be angry and in love than the happiest and not in love.

tomorrow is friday this week has gone by quickly . . . i am glad

i get to see philip . i can't wait.

i think i'll sleep now so that the time will come sooner. . .

sorry.

its been a million years since i've posted. . . and since then i successfully completed my first year of college. . .made a new friend. . .and philip and i celebrated our first anniversary. . .

blah blah blah.

so yeah i should be doing homework or taking a shower but. . .nope.

I really wish i had something exciting to post since its been soooo long but. . .

sorry

thanks ♥ for the support!

everything is ok. . . for now.
I've decided to start something a little different and all kinds of new. . .
a site where I post a photograph of myself daily. . .
Just one. . . everyday for as long as i can remember
i've talked it up enough check it out. . .
www.xanga.com/thedaysofphotography